Phew, nothing like a cardiac stress test to shake up your thoughts. I am at an age where these things can happen and in fact I am not surprised given the old family gene pool, but I was not prepared for all of the emotional stuff that would surface. If you have read my profile you know I am a nurse and consequently have a good grip on what the possibilities are if you have cardiac pathology, that being said I wasn't prepared for the mental house cleaning I have been doing since starting this journey. I have to say that it has left me thinking clearly and that you only get one ticket and I am not wasting anymore time worrying about all the what if's in this crazy world. From here on out it is one day at a time , in fact one minute at a time taking it all in no matter what it looks like without regret. At times of stress and uncertainty there is only one certainty and that is we are alone with our thoughts and memories, so I plan to make the most of every experience no matter how small. Mostly I plan to hone my observation and listening skills, whether it is looking into the eyes of my loved ones and seeing what is really there or feeling the sun on my skin whilst in my garden, or listening to a great piece of music. I am in this experience fully immersed now and glad of it.
19 hours ago